It snowed. This is texas, so it doesn't snow often, hell I don't remember the last time it did snow. It's nice, we need the moisture that comes from it, but snow, we don't get enough of it.. I had hoped to be somewhere with this moving thing by now. As much as this moving thing is going, is it's just stress, because they don't understand, I just want to be gone already. I thought some things would be a lot farther in my life by now, but it's still on hold, and everybody around me, has got it, so what did I do wrong??
Where's my happy ending?
Work is going alright, for the most part.. Getting pulled in a few different directions all the time, has taken its toll, but I do what I can, and then go home, and start again tomorrow. That's all I can do some days. At least I am finally making my own money, even though things in life, don't seem to let me keep it long.
I want to go away for a few day's, somewhere far just for a few days, destress for a second. My anxiety seems to be under control for the moment *knocks on wood*, other issues, seem to be presenting themselves in its stead though, but I am working through them, not so graceful sometimes but at least I am doing it on my own right? That much I have learned.
Certain things feel like they are always haunting me, but maybe it's because I let them. Because I haven't learned how to make it stop, some days I just want the world to back off leave me alone for a few, and let me gather myself back together.. I miss the quiet time that I had. Some times, but I know I have thing's that need to be done, so I don't understand why it always has to be a constant push though.
I just need you to notice, just for a second, that I need you.
There's a lot I could rant about I'm sure, but I think that's okay for the moment.
Don't let go keep breathing
You can hold on
The sky will stop bleeding
Just like the pain
Haven't you had enough rain
