Family Crap...

Sorry I ain't been writing, I feel like I am already failing on the things I want to do this year, and it just started..

The last couple weeks, have been nothing but family drama, and drama of any kind. It's wearing me down. Nobody knows that though.. my "in law" that belong's to my brother. Is quite different then I have ever met in a person before. She acts like she cares on the surface, but you get past that fake crap you realize that she don't care about anything but her own agenda, and whatever she wants to do. She only cares about herself, and she doesn't care what she does to the people around her. Well me being me and me being as protective as I am even though I don't show it...

Have been having problems with things that she has been doing, and the way that she has been treating certain people. So finally after I get pushed and pushed, and after enough hearing about things that have been done.. Because I seem to be the one that everybody talks to and I don't know why. But that's also besides the point.. I finally went off on this "in law" of course you know that didn't over very well, but I am not here to make her life better or to make her happy.. Well after much talking and after much fake apology's from her, she said that it wouldn't happen again. Although I kind of knew that that wasn't the truth even when it out of her mouth but I gave her the benefit of the doubt (big mistake but anyway)..

So I was talking to my best friend about it AGAIN. Cause once again, the "in law" done it again. Don't really surprise me, well being that my best friend is very protective of me and my mother, she didn't want things escalating like it has a habit of doing around here, into a really big thing. So she told the "in law" to just avoid me for a while because I was upset.. The next thing I know that "in law" is snapping on me. Because supposedly I was talking about her, instead of talking to her, after she had already told me after the last mess, not to talk to her about anything because I am a year older then her.. (stupid reason, but then again she isn't that bright). So I snapped right back at her.. And basically told me because I don't have a job, that it was my job to clean up after everybody, because I have all day to do it and she don't. And I told her that wasn't no damn excuse for not cleaning up after herself and her husband. Because they are grown.. She told me I am selfish, cruel, and the most hurtful person, she has ever met. That I'm spoiled and that I treat people like they are below me and I treat people like trash. That's been replaying in my head since it happened..

It's like she don't know how to be around people, or something I don't know. All I know is I have tried to be nice to her, and something like this always happens, and for some reason it ALWAYS gets turned around on me. Like she's making me out to be the bad person all the time.. She really just rubs me the wrong way. So We're not speaking, I don't know if we ever will. And I don't care to.. I know I ain't those things she says, but then it goes back to a part of me that has been buried, and I thought was long gone, so of course it bugs me..

It's just been a stressful start of the year.