I did not accomplish half of what I wanted to this year... Nothing changed. I still feel broken, it just feels worse then it did a few months ago. And maybe that is my own fault, I don't know.
The only two things I did accomplish this year, is I did get a job. (Yay) just by luck though. I've been fighting hard to keep it to. I've been there five months. Which doesn't seem very long. But it feels like a life time some days.
The second, is I actually do have a high school diploma so therefore, I do not need a GED so that is good news I guess, still hasn't gotten me anywhere though.
Driving? Nope not yet.
Cussing? eh, some days.
Relationship? Nope, not yet, maybe some day, I ain't hopeful though. Talkin to somebody new? Nope. Still stuck in the same old patterns.
Depression? Yep got it. I think so anyway. Why? No idea.
I don't know what to write anymore... I don't know what to feel anymore, I don't know what to think anymore. An I really don't know what to do. So it's whatever...
I feel myself shutting down? do I want to stop it. Naw, bring it on..
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